So I met with the SBA guy at the Knightdale Chamber of Commerce.  It was a free event they were hosting and I thought hey – free – my unemployed self can afford that!  Well, after my meeting (see recap one post back), one of the staff members and I were talking about my business and she mentioned that the Chamber was hosting a women in business lunch the next day.

I should start by saying a couple of things about me.  1) Although I was a promotions director for a radio station which meant I had to be very outgoing and approachable with all types of people and 2) I am a marketer by trade which means I have dealt with a lot of professional people over the years — I am VERY SHY when it comes to meeting new people, especially in a group setting.  Freaks me out and I get really nervous.  It is pathetic.

Now, back to the luncheon.  How could I say no.  I am a woman.  I want to be in business.  It seemed like something I should do so I signed up.  I thought I would go through my usual cycle of — nervous, don’t want to go, decide I should go, more nervous, decide I will not go, get angry at myself, don’t go — yes, this is crazy I know but I have just always felt as though when I talked to or reached out to people, I was somehow bugging them or wasting their time.  I’m weird.  I know.

Today was different though.  Today found a new sense of confidence or something in me that just led me to the luncheon and it was great.  I wasn’t nervous at all.  I walked into the room, sat at a table where other people already were (I NEVER DO THAT) and even when it was my turn to give an introduction, I just stood up and did it.  I cannot believe how easy it was for me.  I think that this is how I know that I am doing the right thing for me.  Because for the first time in my life, I feel a sense of accomplishment and fulfillment out of my days.  I have never had that with any other job.  I always hoped that their approval of my work would give it to me but it never did.  Until today.  Today is the day that I found out what I was really capable of and I have to say, it is the greatest feeling in the world. 

Now.  We just need the loan so this great feeling can start coming with a paycheck!

And to all the Women in Business today at the Knightdale Chamber of Commerce – thank you for welcoming me with such open arms into your community.  I look forward to a great time with you guys and we are ON for margarita brainstorming!